A place for my lyrics.

[Thesumbum]

“You Can’t Save Me”

Beat me up, push me down, and break me down to nothing
I don’t care about if you hate me
I’m just going to continue to live and be happy
Spread the hate, negotiate, and completely shut up Heaven’s gate
Cause I don’t need you to tell me who I’m supposed to be

Saving myself is now out of the question
Is this who you want me to be
A self-destructive, helpless baby
Someone who can’t lead himself out of this mess
One of the unfortunate children who cry out in distress

Now I take a look at myself
I see all the hardships ahead are not easily avoidable
But the question is not “will we make it?” It’s actually “What does it take”
You can try all you want, but you cannot break my soul
Even if I’m buried deep inside this hole

Saving myself is now out of the question
Is this who you want me to be
A self-destructive, helpless baby
Someone who can’t lead himself out of this mess
One of the unfortunate children who cry out in distress

Love seems to have escaped my mind so long ago
It doesn’t seem it’s coming back any time soon
So if you think you stand a chance to be a part of my life
Just back off, forget me, and forget the things I’ve told you
I’m breaking apart, I’m ripping my heart, I’m going for a fresh start

Saving myself is now out of the question
Is this who you want me to be
A self-destructive, helpless baby
Someone who can’t lead himself out of this mess
One of the unfortunate children who cry out in distress

[Thesumbum]

Here's another one I wrote, it's about losing somebody in your life... For me it has a lot of very personal meeting, because I've already lost somebody close to me...

“The Final Goodbye”

Did you get a chance to say goodbye?
Do you ever wonder why it had to end so suddenly?
Have you ever just sat down and cried?
Did you even ask once “How could this happen to me?”
Well you’re not alone
So many out there have lost someone too abruptly

All these years have passed by
But you will never forget the ones you’ve lost along the way
Today’s the anniversary of that tragic day
When a loved one in your life had gone away
You can take all the time you need today
But just remember that they’d be proud of the life you’ve led since then

You remember talking to her
You remember getting into a fight with him
There were no apologies, and they went away
But if they were here today
They’d be proud of you in every way
They’d forgive you for everything that happened that final day

All these years have passed by
But you will never forget the ones you’ve lost along the way
Today’s the anniversary of that tragic day
When a loved one in your life had gone away
You can take all the time you need today
But just remember that they’d be proud of the life you’ve led since then

Blaming yourself won’t do you any good
It’s just something you should never do
It takes a great toll on you
But looking down upon you from above
Is your friend, sibling, parent, or lost love
Who is ready anytime for that final goodbye

All these years have passed by
But you will never forget the ones you’ve lost along the way
Today’s the anniversary of that tragic day
When a loved one in your life had gone away
You can take all the time you need today
But just remember that they’d be proud of the life you’ve led since then

[Thesumbum]

“My Problems”

It’s better off you don’t get involved with me
Cause baby, I’m really crazy
All these thoughts I’ve got running through my head
Are so much better left unsaid

So if you want in, I’ll let you in
But you’ve been warned
Because if you could see inside my mind
You’d see a mess that you could never dream of cleaning up

It just so happens to be
That I’m perfectly content with my low amount of sanity
So if you don’t like it, please leave me now
I think you’d probably be better off without me

So if you want in, I’ll let you in
But you’ve been warned
Because if you could see inside my mind
You’d see a mess that you could never dream of cleaning up

I don’t want you to worry so much
Because these problems are all my own
I know that you don’t understand
So don’t try to understand me anymore

So if you want in, I’ll let you in
But you’ve been warned
Because if you could see inside my mind
You’d see a mess that you could never dream of cleaning up

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“Complete Control Over You”

The organization allows no space for any thought to take place
They try to think for you, they try to run the human race
But why would He want them to be the rulers
They hold the crown, they make the laws, they run our lives
But they didn’t make us, so they can’t break us

I’m moving faster into this doubt
Falling to the master in control of the world
He hands me the sword
But I choose to turn it down
Because it’s not up to me to control this town

Disbelief in His creation leads to eternal suffering
I don’t quite understand exactly what they mean
Because eternal flames grow numb over time
Until they are all to unaware they are even there
Does this mean a soul just dies and fades away

I’m moving faster into this doubt
Falling to the master in control of the world
He hands me the sword
But I choose to turn it down
Because it’s not up to me to control this town

They are the dominant belief, they control the world with an iron fist
But I’m looking at them, wondering what I missed
How is this a promising life
If all they do is tell a story of why they are the rulers of the world
But never truly explain in full detail how they became the law in the first place

I’m moving faster into this doubt
Falling to the master in control of the world
He hands me the sword
But I choose to turn it down
Because it’s not up to me to control this town

[Thesumbum]

“Help Me”

You’re hurt and I can help you
Because if you need a place to stay
I’m here to lend a hand to you
So come on over if you need any help

Abuse just isn’t right
Both mental and physical, you need to get out
Because I can’t stand to see you this way
So come along with me, you can stay

I can’t save you from the harm if you’re not willing to help yourself
Because if you don’t help yourself, that leaves it up to nobody else
So please, for me, for yourself, just get out of that place
Come around here, where you can show your face

Abuse just isn’t right
Both mental and physical, you need to get out
Because I can’t stand to see you this way
So come along with me, you can stay

All these late nights aren’t good for you
But they’re bad for me too
I’ll help you pull through if you need me to
I’m here to help you out

Abuse just isn’t right
Both mental and physical, you need to get out
Because I can’t stand to see you this way
So come along with me, you can stay

[Thesumbum]

“Not In Love”

Looking at your best friend
Attracted to her since a very young age
And now you want her to be with you forever
But roughly how many times does this work out?
Most the time, never!

Don’t say you’re in love
You’re just infatuated
Don’t say you’re in love
Because it’s more than likely that you aren’t

Say the word
Until it loses all it’s meaning
Just say
Until the word gets so beat up
You can just throw it away

Don’t say you’re in love
You’re just infatuated
Don’t say you’re in love
Because it’s more than likely that you aren’t

No amount of true emotion
Can change this for everyone
It manages to keep its meaning
When it’s truly meant
But so many people out there, including me, killed the word “love”

Don’t say you’re in love
You’re just infatuated
Don’t say you’re in love
Because it’s more than likely that you aren’t

[Thesumbum]

Well, the meaning sticks out pretty clearly in this one. It's about needing to escape from reality, just having a day to yourself. I need one really bad, and I haven't had one for a very long time. It's driving me crazy to have the weight of responsibility, stress, and reality weighing me down all the time.

“Escaping For A Day”

The weight of the world is dragging me down
And I need an escape from reality
If I don’t get to run away anytime soon
I’ll probably lose the sense of who I truly need to be

Everybody needs a break from real life problems every now and then
Sometimes I just feel like I can’t stand my life for another second
If it weren’t for the rare occasions that I’m alone, I’d be completely insane
With small doses of you in between just to help me manage through the rougher times

I don’t even need an endless vacation just yet
But it would be nice to get away for at least a day
Just me by myself, doing what I want to do
Rather than living my life and dealing with all of this responsibility

Everybody needs a break from real life problems every now and then
Sometimes I just feel like I can’t stand my life for another second
If it weren’t for the rare occasions that I’m alone, I’d be completely insane
With small doses of you in between just to help me manage through the rougher times

So many people are like me, they just need to be set free for a while
Escape the bitterness of everyday life
Even the good parts aren’t quite exactly what you want
The truth is that you just need a temporary time out

Everybody needs a break from real life problems every now and then
Sometimes I just feel like I can’t stand my life for another second
If it weren’t for the rare occasions that I’m alone, I’d be completely insane
With small doses of you in between just to help me manage through the rougher times

[Thesumbum]

“My Life (It’s Not Your Problem)”

I’m sitting here
Just living this joke of a life
When really
It’s just an ocean of lies

All of these habits that I’m forming
Aren’t proving themselves to be boring
And if I screw up somewhere along the way
Then I’m the only one to blame

I’m not leaving
I’m just living life believing
Despite you
Telling me it’s a bunch of lies

All of these habits that I’m forming
Aren’t proving themselves to be boring
And if I screw up somewhere along the way
Then I’m the only one to blame

Is it really a problem
If so, I don’t care
Is it really a problem
If not, leave me alone

All of these habits that I’m forming
Aren’t proving themselves to be boring
And if I screw up somewhere along the way
Then I’m the only one to blame

[Thesumbum]

“If The World Was Perfect”

Never will the day come that everyone is happy
And the world will never reach anything near perfection
Even with the ideal lifestyle of so many
There would be people who didn’t like how life worked

If the world was perfect
There would be nothing to rebel against
The rebels wouldn’t be quite the same
They’d have nothing to do
Because the world would be too perfect

Just remember one thing
Because if you had nothing to rebel against
You wouldn’t have to complain through your music
And you wouldn’t reach quite so many people

If the world was perfect
There would be nothing to rebel against
The rebels wouldn’t be quite the same
They’d have nothing to do
Because the world would be too perfect

Imperfection is how the world is at its best
I wouldn’t want the world any other way
I don’t mind these changes over time
But overall the world is pretty good

If the world was perfect
There would be nothing to rebel against
The rebels wouldn’t be quite the same
They’d have nothing to do
Because the world would be too perfect

[Thesumbum]

“I’m Not A Punk (I’m Me)”

Call me whatever you want
Just because it’s labels that don’t mean a thing
Just because you say something
Doesn’t make it even remotely true

I’m not a punk (I’m me)
I’m not a rebel (I’m me)
I’m not a poseur (I’m me)
I’m not some cock-sucking emo either (I’m me)

“Harsh” words are only for the worthless
Truthful words are only for the wise
Labels are nothing that hurt me
They don’t make me feel so special, either

I’m not a punk (I’m me)
I’m not a rebel (I’m me)
I’m not a poseur (I’m me)
I’m not some cock-sucking moron either (I’m me)

I don’t like stupid people
Oops, I labeled you
I hate all the stupid people
Woops, I labeled you again
What are you going to do
They’re just words

I’m not a punk (I’m me)
I’m not a rebel (I’m me)
I’m not a poseur (I’m me)
I’m not some cock-sucking reject either (I’m me)

[Thesumbum]

“Starting Point”

There are no boundaries anymore
People will think and do whatever they want
There’s no limit to the possibilities of how sick in the head someone can be
But what would you find if you looked inside me

We all start out the same
But the things in our brains, and things in our lives
They change, mold, and influence who we are
We can turn out to be the nicest person ever
Or you could end up just like Hitler

I know it’s weird to think even the most cruel minded people were once like us
They were, and there’s not much you can say to deny this
The problems and conditions of the world you live in create you
They are what influence you the most

We all start out the same
But the things in our brains, and things in our lives
They change, mold, and influence who we are
We can turn out to be the nicest person ever
Or you could end up just like Hitler

Nobody starts out dumb, no one starts out a genius
True talent has nothing to do with who you are
It’s all very much your state of mind
But society changes things to the way they want them to be

We all start out the same
But the things in our brains, and things in our lives
They change, mold, and influence who we are
We can turn out to be the nicest person ever
Or you could end up just like Hitler

[Thesumbum]

This one has a double meaning, it's about class being boring, but at the same time it's about my past, and the things I regret not doing.

“Time Passes By”

The hands of time keep ticking on
The days have come and gone
Now time feels like
It’s slowly moving forward

Seconds feel like minutes
Wasting away like my grave
Creating a road to wherever
A new path that I might pave

Nameless faces running through this place
Faceless names dwelling in my head
Each trying to work at its own pace
I’m sitting here, remembering all the things that you said

Seconds feel like minutes
Wasting away like my grave
Creating a road to wherever
A new path that I might pave

I wish I could go back in time
And I’d pour my soul out to you
Just to make these days better
Changing the future forever

Seconds feel like minutes
Wasting away like my grave
Creating a road to wherever
A new path that I might pave

[Thesumbum]

“Sorry (I Brought This On Myself)”

I’m sorry
I didn’t mean to get so close to you
Because I often think about another, too
And it’s just another thing that I’ve done wrong

I’m really sorry to say
I regret these things today
I love you, I really do
But right now I’ve got to fix this mistake
I lent you my heart, while another already has it

You mean so much to me
But I’m just not ready
I can’t break your heart
So I’ll just break myself

I’m really sorry to say
I regret these things today
I love you, I really do
But right now I’ve got to fix this mistake
I lent you my heart, while another already has it

I was wrong to let you in
Now I know I just can’t win
I’d say goodbye
But I just can’t make you cry

I’m really sorry to say
I regret these things today
I love you, I really do
But right now I’ve got to fix this mistake
I lent you my heart, while another already has it

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“Forever (I Love You)”

I’d end the suffering for good
If only I could see you one last time
With dreams warming me up to true love
I’m wondering if it’s really worth my time

Forever would never get boring
Not If I could spend it with you
An eternity to measure what now is true
Adding on to the endless wonderful things that we could do

When I first hear your voice
I was so infatuated
When I first saw your face
I fell madly in love

Forever would never get boring
Not If I could spend it with you
An eternity to measure what now is true
Adding on to the endless wonderful things that we could do

You’re the best thing from anywhere
Now I wish that you were here
To show me you aren’t gone forever
But you’re not here now, why’d you have to disappear

Forever would never get boring
Not If I could spend it with you
An eternity to measure what now is true
Adding on to the endless wonderful things that we could do

[Thesumbum]

“Where Is The Love Now?”

I don’t love you
Did you think for second it was true
So say to me whatever you want
Because there’s not much you can do

I stopped caring today
There’s no path to choose,
There’s no right way
Just deception and lies that build a bridge to us all

The truth is not anymore important than the lies you tell me
But I don’t care, I’ve become immune to love
There’s just madness in my brain
A dark cloud that brings the pain

I stopped caring today
There’s no path to choose,
There’s no right way
Just deception and lies that build a bridge to us all

I’m in the sky
Falling to the flames beneath
Because that’s the price I paid when I stopped caring
There’s no feelings for you anymore anyway

I stopped caring today
There’s no path to choose,
There’s no right way
Just deception and lies that build a bridge to us all

[Thesumbum]

“We Didn’t Care”

I’m the one who messed this up
So I’m the one who’s got to fix it
In case you didn’t notice
There’s not anything to this

We were friends
Way back when
Kids never thought
Of social status way back then

Why can’t you keep the same sort of innocent mentality
That you had when you were friends with me
When nobody cared about who we were
Don’t you ever miss the days where you could just have fun

We were friends
Way back when
Kids never thought
Of social status way back then

It’s a very simple concept to grasp
But you just don’t seem to understand
I’m not going to go away that easily
We all deserve a second chance in the end

We were friends
Way back when
Kids never thought
Of social status way back then

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“You’ve Given Up Too Soon”

When I look you in the eyes
All I see are the countless lies
And the panicked look you’ve given me
You pretend that I’m dumb, that I can’t see

Don’t sit here and wait for me to come back
There’s not a chance that I’ll be back
Because there’s no reason for me to come back
You know, not everything’s white and black

You need to listen to people to get along
You need to ditch this problem
Or you’ll be in the wrong
So leave now until you’ve better prepared yourself for the world

Don’t sit here and wait for me to come back
There’s not a chance that I’ll be back
Because there’s no reason for me to come back
You know, not everything’s white and black

I’m not sorry that you’re not doing good
It’s not my problems that you’ve sold yourself for nothing
It’s not like there’s a thing that you haven’t understood
Will you win this game, I knew you never would

Don’t sit here and wait for me to come back
There’s not a chance that I’ll be back
Because there’s no reason for me to come back
You know, not everything’s white and black

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“Angel In Hell”

The world was against you and all that you stood for
The safety of mankind and walking through Heaven’s door
You were so misunderstood in this life by the people with closed minds
Who didn’t believe in you, or any of your kind

You’re the angel cast off to Hell by the people of the world
A judgment that was surely not worth it in the end
Just a light in the dark to burn out over time
A castaway of faith thrown out like another piece of trash

The beauty was in the lessons that you taught
But the things that you said were never even bought
The children were turned away from you by their misleading parents
Who didn’t want these words said to the future of the planet

You’re the angel cast off to Hell by the people of the world
A judgment that was surely not worth it in the end
Just a light in the dark to burn out over time
A castaway of faith thrown out like another piece of trash

I know that I’m not perfect, I’m no minority
I’m just like you, a hated member of the majority
All the fallibilities we all hold on to just to feel safe
Like a nightlight in a child’s dark empty room

You’re the angel cast off to Hell by the people of the world
A judgment that was surely not worth it in the end
Just a light in the dark to burn out over time
A castaway of faith thrown out like another piece of trash

[Thesumbum]

Here's a few I wrote at college today

“I’m Coming Home”

I’m finally coming home after so long
Although leaving in the first place wasn’t wrong

I’ve figured out that I wasn’t home all along
I was in a place I wasn’t wanted or welcomed
So I found a new place to stay

I’m finally coming home after so long
Although leaving in the first place wasn’t wrong

I used to be limited to what I knew
Now I’m growing to find out from a different point of view
Not everything is stuck inside the box

I’m finally coming home after so long
Although leaving in the first place wasn’t wrong

There are no breaks unless you take them
There are no opportunities unless you make them
I don’t know, maybe that’s just me

I’m finally coming home after so long
Although leaving in the first place wasn’t wrong

I’ve been able to see more clearly on my own
I’ve become all that I wanted since I’ve grown
I thank myself and all I’ve known

I’m finally coming home after so long
Although leaving in the first place wasn’t wrong

“Inconsistent”

I’m not going to stay the same
I’ll be random and inconsistent in all the things I do
I won’t keep one style of anything forever
Because being repetitive isn’t clever
(Repetitive (x10))

I can’t fix me
Because then I might not be
Inconsistent (x3)

Are you tired of me yet
I’m sure, I bet
Do you get it
The words, they rhyme, it’s all in time, don’t repeat
(Repetitive (x10))

I can’t fix me
Because then I might not be
Inconsistent (x3)

(Repeat chorus)

“True Love Is Better”

I once thought that growing up would suck
Now I know that I was wrong
The challenges come from the pressures of the world
Don’t let life get you down, just sing your favorite song (Or find your own escape)

I admit that I’ve changed in every way
I know I’ll have to adapt to each and every day
It’s my life, I’ve got the final say
But I can’t keep living on my own

I’ve come to find out that true love is better
And real life is easier when you’ve got someone who loves you
They help you to keep moving through
When things don’t get easy, they’ll do all that they can

I admit that I’ve changed in every way
I know I’ll have to adapt to each and every day
It’s my life, I’ve got the final say
But I can’t keep living on my own

I love watching you smile
Although years ago you’d have been just another girl
I’ve matured enough to know
That I’d be lost without you

I admit that I’ve changed in every way
I know I’ll have to adapt to each and every day
It’s my life, I’ve got the final say
But I can’t keep living on my own

“The Voice Not Heard”

Burning in the heat of the sum
My journey through this desert has just begun
I’m sinking in the sand
With my dreams in my head and nothing in my hands

Kicked out of society
With nothing for survival given to me
I won’t end up like the others who have gone
I’ve got enough faith in myself to keep moving on

Never even given an unfair trial
I’ve been cast away by others in denial
Not allowed to voice my opinions
Cast out by the mindless, voiceless minions

Kicked out of society
With nothing for survival given to me
I won’t end up like the others who have gone
I’ve got enough faith in myself to keep moving on

I’ll make it through the valley
No regrets for what I’ve done
I’m not the only one
Looks like I’ve started a revolution

Kicked out of society
With nothing for survival given to me
I won’t end up like the others who have gone
I’ve got enough faith in myself to keep moving on

[Thesumbum]

“Forgive Me”

You provided me with so much more than I could have asked for
You made my life even more worth living
You make one minor mistake, and my light falls and breaks
Now I’m lost in this dark room until you’re willing to forgive me

I’m sorry for my harsh words
They weren’t anything you deserved
Now I’ll make myself pay for these awful things of done
I tried to hurt you, but I ended up beating myself up in the end
My day was filled with sorrow and pain
As these emotions covered me like the rain

Did I ruin my chances of being with you forever
Because you’re the only one that I want now
Forgive me, if you can find it in yourself, somehow
If you don’t, I’ll end up losing in the end, and you’ll have lost much more than a friend

I’m sorry for my harsh words
They weren’t anything you deserved
Now I’ll make myself pay for these awful things of done
I tried to hurt you, but I ended up beating myself up in the end
My day was filled with sorrow and pain
As these emotions covered me like the rain

Goodbye if you don’t want me
It’s not hard to see
I may have upset you
So I deserve all the bad things that are thrown in my direction

I’m sorry for my harsh words
They weren’t anything you deserved
Now I’ll make myself pay for these awful things of done
I tried to hurt you, but I ended up beating myself up in the end
My day was filled with sorrow and pain
As these emotions covered me like the rain