I'm confused
Posted: Fri Feb 26, 2010 2:50 am
ok, i've never had any type of relationship so i don't know what the fuck to do right now so i'd appreciate if anyone could help me make sense of this.
as you know, i was in Italy this past week and while in Italy i found myself growing fond of this one particular girl. i found the courage and asked her to be my grad date/escort for june. i asked her in front of two other girls that were in her same room for the trip. her response was that she would have to ask her mom, but i saw her not make direct eye contact and she looked down (as she was packing her suitcase) and i swear she completely blushed. i left the room and i heard shrieks, but it didn't occur to me until latter. then just thinking about it made me happy that i had just came out and asked her straight up. i began to think that i may have other feelings for her aswell. then on the ride home she seemed really cool/calm and i was feeling even better.
then we got back home and i talked to her on facebook for over three hours, amazingly. but when i asked her what her mom had said, she told me that she hasn't gotten an answer yet. i said it made sense because her parents don't know who i am, and nor my parents her. i told her that i'd like to take her out someday this week, but she didn't reply for about 4 or 5 minutes and she said that she just found out that she has to work everyday after school. i even offered to take her out to lunch during lunch break in school. she told me that she wants to catch up with school work. it makes sense that she'd say that cause i too have to catch up in school.
i talked to her again the other day (on facebook) and her mom said she could be my escort. that made me really happy again but i never saw her at school for these past two days, she was sick today but i dont know about wednesday.
then i just finished talking to her again and this is what we said:
Me: i suppose you're gonna finish the rest of your homework at lunch/after school tomorrow
Her: ya most likely..not looking forward to it tho haha
Me: so then i guess you wouldn't want to go out for lunch/coffee
Her: no cant
Me: it's alright, i get it
Her: okay..i gotta go now tho..ttyl
Me: see ya
now when i keep getting these sort of messages from her it makes me think that she doesn't want to even be around me. but if she told me that her mom and she are alright with me taking her to grad, then that shouldn't be the case? im so confused, can someone help me understand cause i really don't know. i wish that if she doesn't like me/want to be around me that she would would just say so. i can handle rejection, but i can't handle being so grossly confused.
as you know, i was in Italy this past week and while in Italy i found myself growing fond of this one particular girl. i found the courage and asked her to be my grad date/escort for june. i asked her in front of two other girls that were in her same room for the trip. her response was that she would have to ask her mom, but i saw her not make direct eye contact and she looked down (as she was packing her suitcase) and i swear she completely blushed. i left the room and i heard shrieks, but it didn't occur to me until latter. then just thinking about it made me happy that i had just came out and asked her straight up. i began to think that i may have other feelings for her aswell. then on the ride home she seemed really cool/calm and i was feeling even better.
then we got back home and i talked to her on facebook for over three hours, amazingly. but when i asked her what her mom had said, she told me that she hasn't gotten an answer yet. i said it made sense because her parents don't know who i am, and nor my parents her. i told her that i'd like to take her out someday this week, but she didn't reply for about 4 or 5 minutes and she said that she just found out that she has to work everyday after school. i even offered to take her out to lunch during lunch break in school. she told me that she wants to catch up with school work. it makes sense that she'd say that cause i too have to catch up in school.
i talked to her again the other day (on facebook) and her mom said she could be my escort. that made me really happy again but i never saw her at school for these past two days, she was sick today but i dont know about wednesday.
then i just finished talking to her again and this is what we said:
Me: i suppose you're gonna finish the rest of your homework at lunch/after school tomorrow
Her: ya most likely..not looking forward to it tho haha
Me: so then i guess you wouldn't want to go out for lunch/coffee
Her: no cant
Me: it's alright, i get it
Her: okay..i gotta go now tho..ttyl
Me: see ya
now when i keep getting these sort of messages from her it makes me think that she doesn't want to even be around me. but if she told me that her mom and she are alright with me taking her to grad, then that shouldn't be the case? im so confused, can someone help me understand cause i really don't know. i wish that if she doesn't like me/want to be around me that she would would just say so. i can handle rejection, but i can't handle being so grossly confused.